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Dec. 2nd, 2008 @ 10:43 pm
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"I'm okay with it, after all this is the internet"
Srsly sometimes I love the hell out of Amy.
In other news I wuv my new exercise bicycle. It is only a few weeks old but I wuv it. It has not replaced my elliptical love because dizzam the heart rate I get on the elliptical is way better than what I can do on the bicycle but still the bicycle is perfect for low impact, quiet, later night exercising. |
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I miss my journal
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Nov. 28th, 2008 @ 04:56 pm
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I miss my journal. I miss my writing in my journal and pouring it all out. I'm not even sure why especially because on Deadjournal there isnt really an assuredness that anyone is reading it and very unlikely they'll comment but basically I miss the pouring out regardless. I used to have this friend Bryan (well still friend). I'd write Bryan these long, meandering emails about life and how I felt and my hopes and wonders and he would read them and rarely reply and I knew he'd read them because we'd chat and he'd randomly bring up something small I'd say in the emails but he didn't comment. In fact he would ask sometimes if he could reply to the email and I'd go no, no thats not our thing. Our thing is that I email you and you take it all in and I feel so much better for having poured it out to you....So I'm going to write in my journal again. Which journal? Thats the question. I have so many and I could go to any of my 5 livejournals. My 6 deadjournals. a blog spot. my tv blog. my myspace. my facebook the last three being things I haven't logged into or paid attention to in months. Probably just here again because pouring it here makes the most sense though I dunno LiveJournal is actually alive and heck even Owen has left the building when it comes to DJ and I never thought that would happen but he is married the lurverly Patience and they are both probably very, very busy.
Today is black friday and I spent half the amount of money I planned. 300. I was going to buy a second laptop just because I didn't mind getting up really early and standing in line or sleeping in a car all night or anything but then me and my boy got into a fight and I left to go a hotel room. a hotel room. I left and got a hotel room. I still find that amazing because it was the best fuckin thing I ever could've done. I left and I went to my old hotel. My dingy, dirty, looking back on it was dreadful hotel and something about being back and looking at it all just revitalized me. Almost like going home to Arkansas does. It was like look at the past to see the future type thing. Felt great. And by crazy, random happenstance I ended up in my old room.
And I just laughed a really great laugh. I was about to complain about Gilmore Girls which I picked up on sale. I decided to watch the last season. I always end up watching the last season of things. I got the Buffy DVD set for Christmas last year and I watched the last season. Then I got Veronica Mars for a "Anniversary" present (which btw for some reason I felt good and bad about getting them because part of me was like surely I should've grown out of wanting DVD's over jewelry and what not for presents but I didn't ask for this, I was just given so its okay and I was quite happy for them because I didnt expect them so it was like sweet oh snap I cant wait to watch the FBI special season four pitch and seriously it was so great and I'm really annoyed they didn't pick it up and moving on) and I watched the last season. Anyhoo so I started to watch Gilmore Girls and I'm watching the disintegration of Luke and Lorelai and then there was a scene with Luke and Lorelai talking and it was like truly over and I'm on my exercise bicycle burning off thanksgiving calories and fuckin a I bawled my eyes out. I was crying so hard and so loud that I was quite sure boy who was asleep in next room was going to wake up and start comforting me using the name "nicci" which would've probably made me cry even more because I'm actually getting kinda sick of the fact that a whole group of people know me as nicci. like today we were out and about and ran into this girl who knows us as a couple and she was like oh hai nicci and boy and i was like oh fuckin hell that is just so wrong. so fuckin wrong. and I was like yes, yes it is def time to break the fuck up because this is all too coupley for me which obviously we made up last night and everything but he said to me that last night when he asked me to not walk away and I did that he realized that he cared far more for me than I did for him and I was like REALLY? I'm pretty sure a few weeks ago I mentioned why I liked us in a relationship was that I was quite happy to fuck him off any old time and it doesn't feel committed at all because I was far more invested in Grey's Anatomy that I was with him so when he said last night he realized my lesser investment i wanted to point out that I had mentioned I was more invested in a tv show (which btw has had a shitty season so much that I havent watched the last like 4) than him so how could he be confused by my "investment" but instead I was like mmmm and was thinking should I go on J-Date since my whole omg thing especially in New York and the Jews on the plane back and srsly I was like jelly, jelly with the hats and the hair and I was like if it wasnt for a ridiculous amount of rules and the fact that I'm down with the J.C. I would so be converting to Judaism and I mean the orthodox version but anyway no one wants to be alone for Christmas so I was like might as well stay with him til Christmas but I said that before about relationships and it was stupid and either way need to make decisions about that. Anyway what I laughed at was something I laughed at in the past with Brian and Lane and Zach and her getting preggers after them having sex one time on the beach in dirty Mexico, etc.
Oh what else? I shopped for babies today because of the whole big brother/big sister thing and I gotta tell I bet there is a whole section of people who had babies just to Christmas shop for them because there is something about buying very colorful big packages for childrens that is almost fun. Of course I think part of me was enjoyng the fact that I knew ten and twenty dollar presents would impress a five year old to glee. I bought a PS2 today and apparently every time a girl talks to a guy and laughs at them it is flirting as I was chided "why you gotta flirt with the gamestop guy?" and I was like really? and I was trying to remember if I was really flirting but i think I was just joking though the dude totally looked like Jim from the Office and he did the eyebrow lift thing for me so I had to be like omg thats awesome. Mmm Chris has just confessed love to Lorelai.
Everytime I hear a story about people who loved each other for so long moving on to someone else I'm like WOW that easy huh? How does one just totally give up on love? Rory is all dirty txt flirting with Logan in London.
Anyhoo I'm writing a book. A good book if I say so myself since the spec i wrote received e shall we say "interest". It was all inspired by my life which totally validates the fact that I am really fuckin interesting. It did not bode well for the boy who wants me to get over my superiority complex but it did validate me like effin whoa. Um work is gay really gay lately. I'm so sick of it and my boss and omg they are talking about snakes on a plane on gilmore girls and I remember this episode so much. I was like HOW can Lorelai not love Snakes on a Plane?
My IPOD which isnt mine since I bought it for someone else and it was engraved n shit is in need of replacement now because there is a tiny, little scratch in the corner which bothers me for those random ass times I watch a video on it since getting the laptop still I want the touch but the touch is like 32gb or something and its like what am I gonna do with 32gb? thats nothing and I fuckin hate all the applets for it and I dont know why. Why do I hate them people? These 1's and 0's of the programing applets have done nothing to me but the fact that they exist in insane amounts bothers me.
I also bought a roll out keyboard for myself because Its stupid and I really wanted a rollout keyboard and I was like justifying it to boy "no, no whats gonna happen is im gonna put it in my bag and we'll go to a bar and then I'll pull it out and play songs and everyone will be like THAT is awesome." In my head this has already happened and I made a hundred dollars in tips then gave it all to the first bum that I saw. I was actually gonna pass out the tiny airplane bottles of alcohol to bums on thanksgiving but didn't because of fight on Thanksgiving. Poor bums. So anyway finally replaced camera since I figure with all the trips Ive taken I am not a fan of my camera. nuh uh. It looks neat and hells yeah if there is an abundance of light it takes decent pics but it is shit. i think my camera phone is better at times anyhoo new kodak with 10x zoom i think.
Um other stuffs. bought little kiddie laptops for the kids and a motorized car because every little boy should have one. Oh and ipod dock for the ipod that has a scratch on it. still effin awesome price for something that was way more expensive not so long ago.
God I feel so much better. I wasnt sad or anything well earlier with the gilmore girls mishap I was but now I feel so much better that I did before.
ya there is so a need for me to have a journal. and...doot...oh snap drinks tonight mebbe? mebbe. 2 more days off! Wee! |
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Teardrop
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Nov. 26th, 2008 @ 09:26 am
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Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath
Nine night of matter
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath
Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath
Stumbling a little
Stumbling a little
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Nov. 3rd, 2008 @ 11:21 pm
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At the end of the day it came down to Obama. Our visions for the country align better than mine with McCain. I do not like what John McCain became during this campaign even if I find fault with a few of Obama's plans I find more fault with McCain's plans. I do think John McCain is a great senator and would probably make a great majority leader. In the end what really lost me on McCain was Palin. The woman really has a lot of issues given the office she would be involved in. I respect that Obama has little experience as well but he has handled himself well throughout the election and I believe that he will surround himself with people who are better than him and give great ideas. I do not feel he will go for the yes men types. I think he is going to be best for the country at this time. Lord knows I don't think he is a Messiah like many do and I know he has issues. He will not solve all our issues or even truly be a change but I feel he is a small step in a different yet good evolution for my country and at the end of the day I love my country more than I love myself and I want the best for it and its place in the world. So......there ya have it. April voted Obama. |
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Nov. 2nd, 2008 @ 01:11 pm
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respectfully....
you get one life |
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a photo and a gift
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Oct. 19th, 2008 @ 03:09 pm
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Sep. 10th, 2008 @ 02:12 pm
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Im at the hospital
and am totally not freaked out at all
Im taking it all in stride
and I didnt just re-write my will.
I'm just chilling out at the hospital.
Enjoying the smell n shit.
Yup
For the record I have about 200 grand in life insurance and its split threeways between my little brothers and sisters.
I never skimp on life insurance.
My doctors name is Rogoff
sounds stupid and german
Jack Off Rogoff
He was definitely made fun of in school
So yea in the hospital--Medical City. I dont know if this is the best one. I think the best is Baylor but I know the worst is Parkland and I'm not there so its all good on that front.
Yea
doot |
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Sep. 9th, 2008 @ 07:57 am
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Who the fuck is Russell Brand? I mean really. Pffft. |
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Sep. 1st, 2008 @ 06:12 pm
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Happy Labor Day!
I am not drinking.
That is impressive indeed. |
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Aug. 23rd, 2008 @ 12:33 pm
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Everyone seems to be hating the Joe Biden pick
ETA/I will *cut* the next Obama supporter who says shit like America wont survive as a Nation if Obama isn't elected. Fuck you motherfucker my country will survive with our without your Obama Messiah.
Final Eta/ This was in reply to me after I replied to them with their statement about the nation not surviving without Obama. Honestly I want to reply but a variety of their ridiculous reasons for disliking McCain pretty much says this person is a zealot and will hear nothing else. I'm sure McCain has said "Fuck all them blue states" because Obama simply must have been the first politician to say the United States should be United.
Also IDGI why is the fact that he doesnt send email so fuckin important?
I do feel strongly about Obama, and I do have sympathy for people who believe that McCain wants to improve anything. It's obvious - very, very clear - that McCain wants things to stay exactly as they are, and that alone is a reason not to vote for him. But more importantly, as a person, the man leaves much to be desired.
He doesn't want to leave Iraq even though the Iraqi people are screaming for a timetable. It's their country, not ours.
He is a womanizer who cheated on his first wife, who raised his children and faithfully waited for him while he was held prisoner. When he came home to find that she had been disabled in an accident, he left her for the other woman - who was younger, prettier and had more money and political contacts.
He called that younger, prettier second wife a "cunt" in front of reporters.
He blatantly lied about not needing a military escort while in Iraq.
He blatantly lied about General Petraeus "riding in an unarmored Humvee." There is no such thing.
He doesn't even know how to send an e-mail.
He doesn't know the difference between terrorist factions unless Lieberman is behind him whispering in his ear.
But what scares me the most is that he is so hot-headed. He flies off the handle at the slightest provocation. That's what he's known for in Washington. I don't want a mentally unstable person in control of nuclear bombs - full stop.
The United States is a wonderful country, and I am blessed to be an American. I love my country, deeply. But my government has ran the country that I love into the ground these last eight years. And McCain thinks we're doing just fine, and that everything should stay the same. The war is great and the recession is all in our heads, remember?
Yes, if McCain is elected, the country will survive. Of course, it will. But it will also weaken. We will only become more divided as McCain keeps the red and blue at each other's throats. Obama has said from the beginning that his whole platform is about bringing the country together and healing wounds. "There are no red states. There are no blue states. There is only the United States."
I am under no delusion that Obama is some savior that is going to deliver our country from all its troubles. He's just the only candidate that even admits we have problems.
So, yes, I feel sorry for people who genuinely believe McCain will do anything to lift our country out of the recession and out of Iraq, because he's said nothing but the opposite from the beginning.
I truly am sorry if the tone of the entry offended you, but my feelings about this are very strong. As I said, this election is serious, monumental. We need to remember that we are seen as leaders, and be mindful that the eyes of the world will be heavily upon us in November. It is important that we do the right thing. |
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Aug. 20th, 2008 @ 05:53 pm
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I have so much packing to do. So much packing! I'm excited for the move though! Still packing So much! and Quinn won't get her ass out from under the bed!
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Aug. 18th, 2008 @ 06:58 pm
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Alona Dubin is totally my best friend in the world.
Reading this email from her just confirms and reminds me that she is. Its perhaps a bit odd that I've never met her and that our last communication was like two-three months ago but shit sometimes you just know who matters to you in this world and Alona is definitely up there. I'm calling her tomorrow so we can talk. Her grandfather just died..killed himself. She had to call her dad to tell him his dad was dead. I can not imagine the horror of that situation and everything else just pales in the light of that.
And since I know her because of Yaron I can't help but think.....I guess regardless it was worth it to know her because there's not another Alona out there just like there's not another April. I am drawn to people alien to the rest of the world. Unique and different is what I crave in friends. She fits the bill impressively so.
So ya I need to go to Israel and meet her. That is my next trip. England...meh it'll have to wait. |
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Aug. 18th, 2008 @ 08:51 am
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Vegas was the most awesome trip ever. We had so much fun and did so many things. You think you won't be up til 4am drinking, gambling, or on the strip but you totally have to. We or I will be going back before the end of the year. I have learned some valuable lessons about going to/staying in Vegas. I will inform you of those later. Right now I'm waiting on my cab to take me to my class which I will so be late for. But since this is a class my company paid for and not something that truly affects me....well hell I'm cool wit dat. |
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Welcome Home April!
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Aug. 3rd, 2008 @ 09:25 pm
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Heh |
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Jul. 29th, 2008 @ 12:30 am
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Wow it is so hot here!
I never knew it could be this hot anywhere!
WOW!
*is dying |
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Tropic Thunder
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Jul. 22nd, 2008 @ 12:20 am
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We saw an advance screening of Tropic Thunder tonight. Honestly it was the funniest movie I've seen since 40 year old virgin. It was so hilarious. Its been a long time since I laughed that much & the hidden cameo was just....just....so perfect.
LOVED IT! LOVED IT! LOVED IT!
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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 09:39 pm
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Happy Birthday to Amber and Amy....
Both people are totally cool and lovable and are dating old men with kids. HA! YES! BUUUUURN!
I mean I looooove you two *hugs* |
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Because each ACT has made be very happy I spread the word....
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Jul. 18th, 2008 @ 08:52 am
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Hehe
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Jul. 15th, 2008 @ 03:35 pm
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My tracker lets me label IP's. I label the return visitors. Some of the labels I give make me laugh. Like this one.
I wonder what Amy would think if I posted her label name.
teehee |
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Happy Birthday Owen Mang!
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Jul. 13th, 2008 @ 02:09 pm
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Happiest of Birthday's to Owen who is most definitely awesome. In honor of this special occasion I present you with a 1.5 mb gif that I hope you enjoy even if its likely you've seen it already.
( Who could it be now? ) |
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